dear diary,
been playing sauer for more than 3 years now..random breaks but nothing serious. 5000+ games. Kinda plateaued aim-wise but ffa is getting better. Yesterday I won bronze in Sauerduels, then I tried to get over-smart and fucked up my map pick in the next game. very unlikely to have won but could've provided some entertainment to the spectators, instead of the ragequit.
still don't feel comfortable joining a clan, don't feel I would contribute meaningfully. team losses are more frustrating, u don't only rage on yourself but also on your teammates. duels are better, u only have yourself, your skill, your aim, your lag, your rig to blame.